melancholy..

hey there. just got back from my grandma's house. it reminded me of some memories. alright, i shall write her what my heart says. how does it feel if someone is hiding something from you? yeah, you feel hurt..because people dont trust you. you feel left out. well, im feeling that right now. am i just being too sensitive or what? no idea. the sky is really dark right now.dark clouds gliding imperceptibly against each other. the sky looks so depressed. it is going to rain anytime. just like someone who is really depressed, crying. why do people hide things from you? they think that you are not trustworthy. they are afraid that you might spill the beans. well the most important thing is to not look down on yourself. others might look down on you. but why bother their words? people will not respect you unless you respect yourself first.

sometimes we face problems, like friendship problems. your friends start to back-stab you, spreading rumours/gossip about you, talking behind your back and the list goes on. or some can even steal your best friend or your partner. this problem is really rampant. i have experienced this before. these problems do make us cry.. we feel hurt, because the person we trust most is against you. you might feel that you are stupid for trusting someone blindly, without knowing their true colour. that isnt important. the most important thing is to get up when you fall. knowing what's right and what isnt. everybody does mistakes. even me.we learn from our trials and errors.friends are like someone really special to us. it is not hard nor easy to find a true friend. friendship is also a special kind of love. a special bond between each other. it really really breaks our heart if someone who you trusted so much betrayed you. you realise that this 'best friend' isnt your friend in the end.but dont be discouraged. there are many more people out there. do not shed a tear in front of those people who want to see you fall. get up and run to complete the race. =]