confessions of a broken heart

what is life? is it full of happiness or sadness? i dont know. but all i experience is sadness. these problems keep bugging me. all day long. i really dont want it to happen. i dont dare to imagine what will happen if is the truth.am i just being impatient or what? i really dont know. it is like pointless to worry about this matter, as i believe that Jesus will decide, and he will provide the best for us. but it is normal to feel stressed and pressured. that is what i feel. i know that i should not worry too much, because when you worry , it means that you dont really trust God. well well. maybe i should just be more brave. i should not hesitate on God's choice. i should trust him 100%. i will. i just pray that the Lord will provide us with great blessings. He knows what is right for us. i believe so. all i have to do is just repent and commit myself to Him. and obey Him with all my heart and soul. i should be a little more patient. i know that God will make my dreams come true. surely He will.