I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise

Hillsong - Till I See You.

SMKB CF CAMP was the ultimate BOMB. Or, the creme de la creme, you would probably say.

I'm definitely going to blog about it, because good things are worth sharing LAHH right. Bangga!

First and foremost, I thank the big boss/DAI LOU/God for everything. I admit, I was a bit hesitant to come to this camp, due to my high expectations and my perfectionist attitude, but it all changed, and it was more than what I actually expected. God really works in unexpected, mysterious ways ; that I cannot even comprehend myself.

Outdoor activities especially Nighthike was the highlight of the first day, just so you know. The pathway was okay in my opinion, but it can get pretty frustrating when it is slippery because it rained cats and dogs previously before that. Stream trotting at night was a bit scary, cos you had to take every brave step forward with faith. When you just gaze onto the sky, smell the fresh air, look at the lush greens and listen to the symphony of God's creations, it gives you that sense of calmness and tranquility inside you. Close your eyes, listen to the surroundings; it really makes you ponder for a while and admire God for how great He is.

The speakers were wonderful, especially Esther Jie Jie, Uncle Button and Pastor Katherine. Their prayers were just too powerful. Uplifting. It was a moment where everyone opened their hearts to receive Jesus, to yearn for that personal touch from Him, letting go of the past, emotional hurts, problems. Their messages were precise and clear, and sure thing, we did learn from that. It's great to know the others (especially those form 1 & 2s were paying attention to them).

Praise and Worship time. Haha! I specifically wanna thank Andrea, Ernest, Jacqueline, Sieh Jin, Gibeon, Grace, Adelene, Jeremy and also myself :P for every moment. Although we would gobble our food in lightning speed for worship practice but I still think that it was worth it. Despite the fact practicing until 5am on the last night where I dozed off in the middle of it and you guys were still practicing with full force and semangat wei. BANGGA GILER. Tak pasal-pasal I woke up when you guys were practicing the Great Awakening. And also I lost my voice, wait no, my voice turned husky and sultry. Whooo, smexay. CUNKAP kan?! :D

Prayers were just, amazing, I tell you. Seeing everyone of us kneeling on our knees, lifting our hands high up, crying and shouting praises, holding hands, it was such a surreal sight. Okay, probably not surreal, more like touching, actually. It was so silent, and you can just feel God's presence. Every tear you cry is always precious in His eyes :) Yeah man, I couldn't believe the fact that I cried and bawled (okay maybe not) my eyes out during prayer. Too bad Andrea didn't see it LAH. JOANNE JADI EMO WEI. GEMPAK man :P

I also love the long night chats with Ms Assunta and Andrea. We shared our heart's deepest desires and the visions God gave to us during prayers. It was a good experience, really. I talked to Jacqueline and Ms Assunta when the rest of them went for stream trotting, I didn't get to go LAH because I had fever, so I missed all the fun, heard that it was very adventurous from most of them. Sometimes we want to pursue something beyond our reach by faith, but at the same time, we are held back by our fears. It can get pretty confusing, actually, but I realize that sometimes all you need is to tune down the world's volume and listen to God's voice :)

There were also moments where we had spiritual warfare, as I would consider it. It was kind of intimidating and scary at first, but we prayed over it and moved on with faith. Once, I lost my room key, and my initial reaction was OMG KANTOI LARRRR! I was dead scared and upset, because I failed to fulfill my responsibilities, and I knew that either satan was playing with me or God was probably testing me, so I paused, prayed over it, searched frantically and oops, it appeared hidden right under the keyboard. I searched the whole place you know, from the canteen to the garden, and you know how big the compound is, but I'd still think that it was worth it. Every second :) So, I decided to wear the room key on my wedding finger to remind me, just in case if I forget again.

I did enjoy myself, though the schedule was a bit camped and I was loaded with so many responsibilities as the room leader, group leader, pianist cum vocalist, but I would say, it was indeed a great opportunity to seize. Great exposure I would say that this camp really broadened my horizons and helped me to move out from my comfort zone.

When the camp ended, the committee members and I gave a sigh of relief and shouted IT'S A WRAP! and gave each other high-fives. It feels really rewarding to have that sense of accomplishment, you know. That sorta satisfaction.

All in all I could say, the camp rocked. Gempak!