Yeah, a short story with a few chapters. I do not have the best grammar though, neither do I have unlimited vocabulary. I have mediocre English, so to speak. Well, my love for writing is beyond words :)

The Last Concerto

Prologue
As he stood along the beautiful horizon of the orange beach, he reminisced about the burnt memories that were already swept away by the spiral cold waves. The sun was like a drop of vermillion. The sound of the waves were like a lullaby. There he stood, like a desolate soul searching for a ray of light or hope. He felt hollow and empty. They say, roses symbolize eternal love. Love used to be that unshakeable force of strength for some people to carry on despite the hurdles in life. Love is like a tiny leaf, even the lightest wisp of air could brush it away. Roses are not forever - they would somehow wither and die.

In the end, it all returns to nothing. When fear and grief dominate and take full control of your life, you bleed just to know you're alive.

Is it right to judge?

Some people think that it is purely hypocritical to judge others. How many times have you heard someone whine, "Judge not, that ye be not judged?" This verse of Scripture from Matthew 7:1 is often quoted out of context by people who are terrified at the idea of someone preaching against sin or pointing out any form of error in anyone, especially in themselves. As for Matthew 7:1, the context (verses 1-5) allows judging after you have first judged yourself. Jesus did not make a blanket statement against judgment. He simply pointed out a rule for judging.

The mouth of the righteous speaketh wisdom, and his tongue talketh of judgment." (Psa. 37:30) A righteous person will talk of judgment. He will not refuse to judge. He will talk judgment.

"Seek good, and not evil, that ye may live: and so the LORD, the God of hosts, shall be with you, as ye have spoken. Hate the evil, and love the good, and establish judgment in the gate: it may be that the LORD God of hosts will be gracious unto the remnant of Joseph." (Amos 5:14-15) How can you hate the evil and love the good if you refuse to judge?

Our generation is well described in Isaiah 59:8: "The way of peace they know not; and there is no judgment in their goings: they have made them crooked paths: whosoever goeth therein shall not know peace." People have refused to judge, so there is no peace.

Paul said in I Corinthians 1:10 to ". . . be perfectly joined together in the same mind and in the same judgment." Why would Paul make such a statement if judging is wrong? In I Corinthians 2:15 Paul says, "But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man." Judging is not a sin; judging is a characteristic of being a spiritual person! Satan has been lying to us, hoping that we will not judge, because he knows that the right kind of judgment pleases God and betters our lives and Christian service. Even me, sometimes I feel guilty of being judgemental towards others. And most of the time I'm irked when people judge me and give me hostile criticism.

Do not judge another when you do not have all the relevant facts. Jeremiah 5:1 says, "Run ye to and fro through the streets of Jerusalem, and see now, and know, and seek in the broad places thereof, if ye can find a man, if there be any that executeth judgment, that seeketh the truth; and I will pardon it." A true judge is one who seeks the truth. If you must judge, be sure and get all the facts. A Japanese proverb says to "search seven times before you judge."

Remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 7:2: "For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again." You'll reap what you sow (Gal. 6:7-8). If you are swift and harsh in judging others, then God will see to it that you receive the same from others. Has God not been very merciful to you, even though you deserved it not.

After all, we should never forget to look at the mirror and see our reflections. 1 Corinthians 11:30-31: "For this cause many are weak and sickly among you, and many sleep. For if we would judge ourselves, we should not be judged." Wouldn't it be amazing if everyone actually took time to judge themselves before judging anyone else? In Matthew 7:4-5, Jesus says, " Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother's eye." A good judge will not fail to judge himself.

I admit that I do feel guilty when I judge someone superficially. We can judge but we must first judge ourselves confessing our sins and then judge righteously not condemning.

Credits to James Melton.

PS: As some of you have noticed that I changed my header. But I decided to change it, again. Heh.

I lost my sanity for a temporary duration of 1 week. I procrastinated, snacked, slacked and stopped working out. Everyday, I am like a living corpse. I wake up, go to school, stick to the computer, indulge myself in junk food and watch DVDs for practically everyday. Don't ask me why. I don't even understand my own actions =.= And the worse thing is, I have not touched my project yet.

Oh great. I'm doomed. How cool is that.

And I am even thinking of going out.

I am burning with rage and indignation. Some stupid scumbag got me so fired up this morning, and I just felt like shouting profanity to him. But, since today was Saturday, I didn't want this to spoil my mood and so I just kept mum throughout the whole so-called lecture. Honestly, he wasted 10 minutes of my life and I rather write an essay/do some Additional Mathematics questions with that amount of time. It wasn't beneficial to me and yeah, his so-called lectures have fallen on deaf ears. Whatever. Anyway, I still have a few questions ringing in my head and I need some explanation about that. There were a few ambiguous statements in your so-called-constructive-criticism and some of the things you said contradicts with your actions.

1. You said that we are the creme de la creme of this school, and we are not showing a good example to the others.
- Well, you're a part of this class, and so why aren't you showing a good example to us since you're a prefect? I thought prefects are trailblazers for all the students of this school to follow? It is very obvious that you are not a good time-juggler. You seem to prioritize your duties more than your studies, which is, indeed, wrong. Not enough time? Too busy? They're all excuses. You don't even take heed of your studies and you even have the courage to tell us that we're not showing a good example to the others. Please, look at the mirror first before your criticize someone and don't come up with such statements which negates your actions. Don’t criticize anything unless you have credibility and a good track record, which in my opinion, you don't even have.

2. You were standing on the 3rd floor of the building and we were standing on the assembly ground. According to your observation, you also mentioned that we were not singing the national loud enough.
- My oh my, how is it possible to hear us singing from the third floor? Are you a bat who has the capability to hear 200 Hertz of vibrations? If we were alone in the assembly ground, then you could probably hear us sing. But there were approximately 2000+ students in the assembly ground. Their voice would have drowned our voices already. How could you possibly hear that? You're merely assuming. And whatever you assume may not be right all the time.

3. When one of us spoke up, you commanded us not to argue with you.
- Okay, would you just shut up if someone accuses you of murdering someone? If you were to shut up, then you're a total retard. With no common sense at all. I don't see anything wrong with being defensive of ourselves. If someone makes false accusations about you, it is normal for you to speak up for yourself. And also this, when someone is trying to give their two cents about something, you can't ask them to just shut up. It is like giving a slap to them and asking them not to say anything. You have to be mature enough to listen to their opinions. Well, you might say, this is a school matter and not a class matter, and therefore, we should not talk about it. Class matters are also school matters, anyway. We're in school, and whatever problems regarding classes/toilets/whatsoever are considered school problems as well. In a nutshell, I guess you're just trying to stop us from humiliating you. Perhaps, eh?

Frankly speaking, I hate getting myself involved in verbal disputes, but sometimes, it just irks me a lot and there is no way I can just keep quiet and do nothing about it. But sometimes, being too straightforward will cause negative repercussions. And a backlash would happen occasionally.

Yes, I know, criticism hurts like a bee sting. So any decent person tries to avoid criticizing others. But sometimes you can’t avoid it forever, so finally, when you get mad enough, you speak. The problem is, when you criticize while you’re mad, you aren’t likely to do it well. And when you say something while you’re angry, we get defensive because anger is an attacking emotion.

So, when you guys see me zipping my lip, it doesn't really mean that I am giving in. I am just thinking of a way to take revenge because vengeance is sweet~ Well, I may be thinking of the words to be sarcastic in a polite way or I may be keeping quiet just for the sake of peace and also to avoid arguments/disagreements :)