Due to some reasons, I might be shutting this blog down. Unfortunately, I do not have the time and the thoughts to blog anymore. Alas, I have decided to come up with a solution - to shut this blog down. However, this decision is still in consideration. I am still having second thoughts. It is hard to keep your feet on the ground when things start to change all of a sudden.

If things are improving in the near future, this plan will not materialize (hopefully..I would be heavyhearted if I were to leave this blog) My blog is merely 1 year and 5 months old and I don't think I want to abandon all the memories I have left behind.

Anyway, let's keep our fingers crossed as all these are just ambiguous thoughts. =)

I'm seriously going to lose my mind (in a few seconds' time). I do not know what the heck is wrong with me these days! Hopefully this doesn't lead me to depression. I'm not exaggerating, anyway. Sometimes I'm so furious about myself. I do not know what to do, and yet I keep blaming myself for all the mistakes that I have done. I should have think twice before making decisions! And now.. it's no point crying over spilt milk. Its futile.

OK, this post might sound rather stupid to you, but I really need to spill out the beans before I go mad. I have practically nothing good to blog about. So many things are already driving me nuts and I don't want my condition to worsen. I need...to unwind from the hustle and bustle of EVERYTHING. Things just don't seem to fall in place. I am rather bored of the same-old-stereotype kind of situation. Things don't work out for me. And my life right now is like a song with super messed up lyrics. Everything is.. upside down! Life is halfway screwed up. Sigh~ I'm desperate for a change? But then.. why would I wait for something that seems to be out of my reach?

Frankly speaking, I am JADED. Feeling all worn-out here. So weary in the inside. And the damn music player is making things worse by playing sad songs (its in a random mode). Music player.. a psychic who has super clairvoyance? Ridiculous. I am here comforting and consoling myself, but the music player is inducing me to be depressed. Nevermind. Shall switch to happy songs to brighten things up a little. Somewhat troublesome, but nevermind, I'll do it for the sake of myself before I go cuckoo (I'm already on the verge of going loco).

................ And here I am, blogging to voice out everything. Makes me feel a better though it doesn't help much.

Some people are rather offended by my sarcasm and sarcastic remarks. I don't mean to be sarcastic but sometimes... I do not like it too as others might think that I'm cold blooded and they would be ignorant towards me. I hate ignorance. Ignorance isn't bliss at all. But sometimes, I have to give sarcastic and point blank remarks because some people are just freaking stupid. They seriously need a slap of sarcasm on their face!

I don't like to be busy. I rather slack at home, do nothing and just stay in front of the television and computer all day long. I don't want to be bothered by anything that is causing me misery. For instance, assignments, projects, orientation and homework. They are my nemesis.

I need silence. I want to sink in the deafening silence.

Que Sera Sera.. whatever may be, may be.