The anatomy of thoughts. I shall rant it here. Loudly.

What if someone assumes that you give up without even trying?

I've always try to reach goals I know that are impractical and out of my reach. That happens to be no secret anymore. I push and push and push until they would probably have to redefine the limits of human boundaries just so they can accomodate me as still being human. Then suddenly, I woke up and realized that of all the times I pushed myself to be, I ended up pushing myself farther away from me goals.

It's in that "trying too hard" that I end up sabotaging my own efforts with self doubt and questioning, I reckon. The more I try to be perfect, the more I'm furious about myself. So I've stopped. I stopped trying because the bulk of our results aren't in the plans we make in life. Life is that unpredictable that even if we have plans for everything as I did, we wouldn't have the time nor the energy to put make them into fall into places.

Our failures depends entirely on our capability to handle and overcome the situation of the moment. They are the steps in while you put forth for the path of journey ahead of you. If you can't even pay attention to where and how walk you're walking, you can never expect to finish that final leg of your journey while running, for sure.

So maybe what I'm doing isn't exactly giving up (I suppose), it's just me trying to put the present into something practical and can be done now instead of clouding myself with improbably possibilities and mirages that are hallucinations which I will never achieve in the future.

:)

YouthQuake IV totally rocked! I don't think I would be able to stop blogging about it in 10 years time. I miss my tribe (Yakobus! Go to east, go to west, YAKOBUS is still the BEST! *cheers*) members, the praise and worship, the crazy moments and of course, the obstacle courses! And yeah, it left a deep impact in my life and I'm super super thankful. Sigh, YouthQuake V will be in 4 years time, I reckon :(( Nevermind, I'm sure that everyone will be waiting in great anticipation for this camp ;)


Some mundane yet interesting incidents that happened for the past few days :
1. My computer got strucked by lightning on that faithful day! As lame as it sounds. Heck, my dad had to pay a whooping 500 bucks to fix that stupid CPU. I had to survive without computer for a week. And, guess what, I had to depend on my piano (*plays Coldplay's 'The Scientist' [yeah that saddening song:(] and starts mourning*) and my TV to ease my boredom. [hehe]


2. The 3S thing is really killing my sanity. Jeez. Had been SLEEPING, SLACKING AND SNACKING lately. Adding up the pounds. Dang, this isn't good :((


3. Been dragging one's heels like giler! Argh, I wonder why I keep procrastinating.

Oh well, procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday :))

For years and years procrastination has been a bad trait, weeded out by self help books and generally been associated with laziness. In my opinion, procrastination can be quite an honorable trait and even bring you fame and fortune.

Un-thought of by many, procrastination has one good point, and this point is what brings the power to the art of procrastination. The point is "What do you do when you procrastinate?" Have you ever thought about this? Hmm?

Care for an example, I like to consider myself the best at procrastinating. If I do not want to do something like doing the household chores, I work on my blog. If I do not want to do work that I really need done, I work on my blog. If I hate doing something, 9 times out of 10 I will procrastinate by working on my blog. It is quite common that you will have an activity that you will always resort to when you are procrastinating.

When you procrastinate, you can brainstorm how to use this to your advantage. If you are anything like me, you will procrastinate and avoid doing the boring brainstorming task at hand. (I find myself working on my blog again). I suddenly decided to allow myself to procrastinate - I did nothing but working on my blog.

One would tend to think that constantly allowing yourself to procrastinate would produce no results. After all the hours I spent working on my blog, a passion for photoshopping [hehehehehe...] formed.

For you to be the best at something, you need 2 things. A desire to do it and the time to change your desire into reality. When you procrastinate, you do what you want for as long as you want. This provides the perfect situation for you to be the best.

Forget looking for something to be good at, use what you learn from procrastination to your advantage :))

Men and women all have habits they can’t seem to give up until the day they die. Men have swallows sitting in their hearts. And women have fantasies about love.

So they continue to wander around confused in their search for love without having the faintest idea who their true soul mate is. Each dreaming of their own fantasies, they say cynically, “Thanks, but no thanks!” Creating mirages without substance, they become heartbroken chasing after something that is not real. So they think happiness only belongs to others.

Most people probably have experienced at one time or another, searching for a pencil all over their house, only to discover they had been holding it in their hand all the while.The simple truth is that both love and happiness are found right beside you, right in your heart. It wants to say that if you discard your superficial defenses, just a little, you too can become happy.

Euphoria is a great feeling but it depends on you. Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you :)

I'm shaken. I'm stirred. I'm blown away. Blue eyes are spellbinding, indeed. :)


Enough said.


Sounds familiar? Go figure(: