cause i don't feel like talking.

but i have something to say.

Monday, December 31, 2007

Who rocked at Goodison Park yesterday?

Arsenal did. DUH. 4-1, sire.

Who sucked at Upton Park?
manchester united (no capital letters for them, yeah. LOL =P)

Who was the sucker of the match yesterday?
Cristiano Ronaldo. He was too confident over the penalty shoot, and he kicked the ball totally senget. It didn't even hit the tiang (pole). Laugh my ass off :D

It was a good thing that Arsenal gave MU short-term joy at least. It was a motivation for the fellow Gunners to do better, and also to excel and outshine like a connoisseur in the field.

Talking about today,

It was different. Not like the usual Sundays. During P&W session, I sang, played, and worshipped with so much of zeal and passion. Today was an exception though, cause I've never felt so much of ardour, burning within me. It was just.. an undescribable feeling. Beyond words. Although I made a few blunders, nothing's going to stop me from praising Him. My heart was lifted, and I could feel the bliss and everlasting Joy, lingering.

It felt.. so good.

I know that He is working in me. And I would love to experience it not just another one more time, but in the future as well, in years to come :)

Thank you, Jesus, for Your wondrous love to me. Thank you for all You've done.

I don't know what 2008 has to offer for me. I do not know what will the future hold and embrace for me.

But, once again, I've placed all my burden and worries onto the Cross, and I humbly surrender everything into Your hands, because, I truly believe that You will lead me to the right path
.

Thank you, again, for walking, and guiding, beside me all these while when I go through every chapter of my life =)

You are indeed my super strong God! :D

Thursday, December 27, 2007

The youths are all going for go-carting tomorrow in Sunway, and I can't.

Cos I've got tuition to attend. Scratch that.

And I have one whole load of Integration questions to do. Screw it.

On being random,

I have lots of idiosyncrasies, and I'm proud of it. I also suffer from narcissism and self superiority complex. Confidence matters a lot to me, and whenever I receive criticism (sometimes I'm being touchy, I admit), it bruises my ego. And I feel terribly bitter. Or even when I fail to meet my own expectations. So, there goes my confidence, crashing down on myself. It sucks because I'm lacking of self-esteem, and I would think more like a pessimist instead. Well, I think its merely being realistic lah.

Music feeds my soul when I'm feeling all worn out and broken inside. I like figuring out chords and melody, though it can be really tedious at times. But I enjoy it, though :) Bass guitars are just hot. Meddling with it is just.. super cool!

And also by the way, I have a penchant for lame shows like Arrested Development (dysfunctional family), The Office (Office politics) and My Name Is Earl. Those can tickle my funny bone, really! Too bad FOX picked Prison Break over Arrested Development. They didn't even wrap up the season, and it was left hanging. Sigh. As much as I enjoyed Arrested Development, I also loved Prison Break. So, either decision is still the same, heartbreaking :(

I think shopping paper bags are attractive. I like collecting them on a regular basis. I think its just too pretty! :D

About new year resolutions. To be honest, I never keep track of them. But next year, I vow to grow - spiritually and also physically? I feel like as if I'm vertically challenged. And I hope to keep my profanity level as low as possible. Also, I hope that I won't be bothered too much by the Adams because of SPM. You know what I mean :) I don't think I should just go into the details of it. Heh.

Getting back to mundane stuffs,

For the past few days I've been subsequently feeling very fann (grouchy), and the fact that Arsenal performed poorly in Fratton Park yesterday, it made things worse. What's with the draw, guys? What the heck were you doing, Adebayor?!?! You weren't playing 4-5-1. It was more like 4-5-0. Damn it!

Apparently Harry Rednapp brought on all of the ex Arsenal old boys (Lauren, Sol, etc) as if to rub Arsene Wenger's nose in it. William Gallas will not be fit for the next game as he had his left foot heavily trodden on. Both incidents merited fouls, but the referee just waved play on. Robin Van Persie will not be fit for the next Everton game though. And of course, Willie too D:

Oh man, I'm depressed at the moment.

Someone get me out of despondency.

PS: Congratulations to all the Straight A's PMR punya people~! :D

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Jesus brings warmth, like a winter fire, a light, like a candle's glow.



Praise and Worship session.

The song 'Christmas isn't Christmas' is played very often, but, it always touch me in a distinct way where I can't describe in words. The lyrics, so articulate, and yet, so beautiful. Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart. True, enough. Somewhere, deep inside you, is where Christmas really starts.

So, I gave my heart to Him, once again, on this special Christmas. I was moved and touched. I cast all my worries and anxiety on Him, because I know that I am in good hands. To trust Him wholeheartedly or doubt Him? We would often choose the latter. But right now, I've decided to lay all my worries aside, and to have Faith in Him fully, and also to celebrate this special occasion with a smile :) - and not a frown.

Like what Aunt Moira said, look behind, thank God, look forward, trust God, look around, serve God.


Candlelights.

Christmas - A celebration of Hope and Love. Amazing, and just too marvellous for words.

Though I feel weary and drained out inside, I know that He will guide me through hardship.

I know, He will, because His promises never fail. :)

Monday, December 24, 2007

Just a random thought : Everton. Why can't you just do a small favour for us? Geez.



Well, anyway, 3 days of shopping went off just like that. I was feeling the blues for the past few days. Oh well, shopping did give me joy, but it was only here-today-and-gone-tomorrow. I should be feeling happy during this yuletide season, but I just don't feel like it lah. Dad will be back tomorrow, and it has been ages since I last spoken to him face to face. I have just so much to tell him. And of course, I miss his presence. I guess all the smses were the main cause of my shortage of credit. Last week, there's still 50 bucks. Now, it has dropped tremendously - 5 bucks left. Screw it! I desperately need someone to derma credit to me. BAHHH.

So, urhm, okay, back to topic.



I went to 1Utama with the pompuan gilers on the first day. I wanted that satin dress (the one I'm wearing) so badly from Forever 21 but apparently, it was the last one and the quality was sorta cacat. So, of course, I didn't get it. Walked around, and still couldn't get anything. Ah. The frustration of doing something, and yet knowing that your efforts are just futile. I was so green of envy of Rosabel. She bought so many things and I was like 'Pfffft!' I only bought some skin products from Skinfood. So gotta love their organic products ;) And Andrea, the fickle minded girl, as usual, was being a grandmother - as thirfty was ever. Goodness, Andrea dear, money is just paper when you don't use them. Haha =P

On the second day, I went to Pavillion KL with my mom. We had only 3 hours to shop, and obviously, it wasn't enough. And you know what?

It is super irritating when you are being fickle minded, not being able to make up your mind during shopping, and knowing that you are rushing for time (or a curfew).

You either end up feeling pangs of regret or feeling cranky.

So, I quickly stepped into MNG (50% sales! Such a pleasant sight to the eye. Hehe :D ) and bought a few tops. It was like mayhem, because there were so many people inside, and yet, the fitting rooms weren't enough. Worse of all, the air conditioner broke down. Sucks big time!

Headed to Roxy and I wanted to buy the flip flops and bags so badly. But mom said no, so.... sigh.

Went to NOSE to get a pair of flats specially for shopping, and then quickly rushed into Forever 21. Bought two spaghetti tops (Orange and purple) and also some accessories. I got a free RM25 voucher too :) Forever 21 in Pavillion is kazillion times better than 1Utama's. I wanted to get J & Co donuts, but we didn't have time! ARGHHHH. Anyway I would love to go Pavillion to shop again! But at the moment, financial crisis lar. Dang! :(

On the third day, which is today, I went to Mid Valley with pompuan gilers and Ben. Ben was the only guy in our group, and I pitied him because he had to follow us everywhere. And guess what, I saw Deborah Henry (Miss Malaysia) in Zara. She was really sweet and prettier in real person. I smiled at her and she smiled back :)

So.. what did I get?



Bangles, bangles and more bangles! I'm so nuts over the big chunky colourful and glittery bangles. And also headbands! :D Yes, I am an accessory junkie. I love buying them, but I usually end up losing them. It's because of my absent-mindedness. I hate the fact that I'm not a neat freak. Mom has been complaining that my clothes are piling like mountains and my wardrobe is gonna explode. And also my accessories! She says that I don't appreciate them, cos I tend to dump it everywhere. It's true, uhrm, well, partially. xD

Goodness. Wrapping presents can be really burdensome. :(

Anyway Merry Christmas to everyone! (you, my blog readers [if there's any. LOL] and practically just everybody)

:)

Monday, December 17, 2007

Look, I told ya! Arsenal totally rocked the Emirates Stadium last night. We beat the Chelsea scums (No offence!) And, it was seriously nerve-racking to watch the whole match. To be frank with you, the whole process was grueling. Every second was so nerve-racking. Every move was scrutinized by that stupid referee who happens to be a blind sucktard.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. I FEEL LIKE CUSSING NOW.

But anyway,


(My two cents about the match)

The Gunners did a superb job. And I am so proud of them :) Especially Gael Clichy who was the man-of-the-match, William Gallas who header-ed the goal (Spectacular one Willie! It was a magical sight to behold, really!) and Manuel Almunia! Almunia saved from a powerful half volley from Shevchenko. Bacary Sagna dealt with the wingers perfectly. Overall, their performance was super CUN.

Mathieu Flamini was back in action, and he shackled Lampard all day and gave him no room to play.

Alex Hleb played mediocrely, as expected, as he was still injured but nonetheless he played quite well. I'm still happy, though :D

And it was very overwhelming and exciting to see the Arsenal players counter-attacking the Blues when they possessed the ball.
Well, there were also a few things that irked me and got me fuming.

First, the referee was a total sucktard. Why can't he see what I see?! Countless times the Blues (eg. Mikel) dived into tackles, which was more like assault in my opinion, and he doesn't even bother about it. And yet why Arsenal players were called up for fouls that did not come close to anything the Chelsea players carried out?

It's frustrating, really.

Offside goals are so potong steam. Adebayor's goal wasn't offside, but according to the referee, it was. Heck, temporal joy. Sucks big time.

And about Ashley Cole. He's a total drama queen sissy. I still remembered what he did to Arsenal, and how he criticized Arsenal and accussed them of forcing him to be the "scapegoat" in his so-caled autobiography. Lies! No wonder he was constantly boo-ed by the spectators. Haha. Now that's cool.

The worse thing is, he didn't even have showmanship. Apparently he didn't want to shake hands with the other players. I heard he slapped Cesc Fabregas during the last minute. That proves that he's one uncivilized assgoblin. Nuff said.

Oh well, who needs Ashley Cole when we've got Clichy ;)

To sum up, the Gunners did a fantastic job. I am just so proud to be a Gooner :D

And I can finally go to bed, smiling. :)

PS: Carlos Tevez was just lucky enough to score a goal against Liverpool. Somehow I rooted for Liverpool to win, but it happened otherwise. Ah. Boo.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Sunday's going to be really exciting, because :

Arsenal vs Chelsea
Manchester United vs Liverpool

I might have a risk of heart attack though. No pun intended. Whenever I watch football, my heart starts thumping real fast, and adrenaline starts gushing up to my head. It can be a really tense atmosphere. Gancheung moment. I'm afraid of defeat, and I get pretty crummy at times.

Or so, I could even utter a word of profanity when I'm dissatisfied. Haha.

Like how it happened last week. Middlesbrough were just lucky enough to pull it off because lady luck was on their side. It was so unfortunate that cream-of-the-top players like Robin Van Persie,
Mathieu Flamini, Alexander Hleb were all injured. Yes, very distressing in fact.

Argh, the disappointment, again.

But I have faith in the Gunners this time. We have to beat Chelsea this time or our position would be in great jeopardy, and no, I do not want the Red Devils to be ahead of us.
We need to win because we are just one point clear of Manchester United. That's why we need to win. It's not about draw or anything else.

And obviously I do not want be mocked =| No joke.

I'd really hope that Francesc Fabregas would be fit enough to play.

Plus Alexander Hleb too. I miss him also lah. This is very random, I know :D

Okay, I shan't cuss at ManUre or Chelsea. Haha.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

So here I am, once again. Haha :)

I have been progressively feeling more like a lazy slug these days, as usual. Lazing around. Eating non stop. Watching dramas 24/7. Sleeping. Shopping. I love this kind of life, man. It's just too good. But heck, its only temporal D:

I woke up pretty early (for me la, Hah!) today, around 10am when my mom yelled at me and I started grumbling. Still groggy as I had barely 5 hours of sleep only. Haha :D Typical, me. Was suppose to go to Connie's place to get the measurements done. So, my blouses and dresses will only be available next month, so, I guess it'll be for Chinese New Year then. CNY's gonna be super meriah, and I definitely love it. Love the colours, love the fireworks, love the CNY songs albeit it sounds like some kinda ah peks and ah sams singing. Love the food. Love the ambience of it. Love to pai lin mainly to collect angpows (haha). I sound so money-minded :/

And of course, I love baking cookies too. I think I inherited my mother's genes. She loves baking and cooking. My sifu, man. Haha. Kudos to her! The aroma of butter, tempting. The colourful icing. Sweet.

Talking about cakes kan, mom had all the raisins and small little fruits soaked in rum already (for the traditional fruit cake to be made for Christmas!). Smells so good, but no, I loathe raisins. Although I have a sweet tooth but uber sweet stuffs like raisins and pineapples are a total no-no to me. I'm weird, I know :) Celery, parsley and ginger are also a BIG turnoff for me. The smell and taste makes me want to regurgitate all the churned food inside my stomach. Not a very nice sight, aye :S

On my way to Connie's place, there was something that caught my eye. It was love at first sight, really. Well, metaphorically la.

This blog is turning into a material blog. Geez. It means I'm becoming more materialistic :x

So..



I got myself a plain sleeveless emerald coloured tee and a purple satin spaghetti strap. Am planning to get the black one too, providing that my mom sponsors me or something :P


These are my white peep-toe wedges, which I've bought last week. I'm totally infatuated with it :D


Yes. A brown watch. I think watches are totally irresistible. But in my opinion, everything that I like is basically irresistible to me lah :P

So that's about it, I suppose. And I'm still not over with height issues. I'm obsessed with my height, which obviously isn't a good thing.

I still wanna grow taller. I wanna reach 170cm. (its out of reach la though) But nevermind lah.

So, okay, my blog isn't really dead. So I'll probably revive it then. I don't want to abandon it lar. I still want to reminiscence the memories :D

As you have noticed, I've changed the layout of my blog! More vibrant and colourful I reckon. The previous layout was kinda ho-hum and dull a bit nia. So, I decided to go under a metamorphosis. Colours! Weeeee~~ A wide diversity of colours are just so pleasing to the eye. Hee hee :P

I finally got my french manicure done, and that manicurist ter-pull my skin when she was cleaning the cuticles of my fingernail. It was bleeding. And then, when she applied the nail polish onto my nails, the nail polish seeped through my pathetic wound.

Oh gosh. Pedih giler man D:

Anyway I've had a slight tummy ache for the past few days. The pain comes and go. And then when you erm, fart, the pain subsides. Felt so... [you fill in the blank]. But I felt much better after .. (you know what I mean ;D). My remedy? Minyak cap kapak and minyak cap perahu layar loh. Works magic man, like seriously.

And the disappointment :( I opted for the Apple Iphone ( it can be unlocked) so my dad told his friend to get it from Dubai since it was duty-free. But Apple had some kind of contract with some sorta mobile phone networking company, so the Iphone will only be available in Asia in the year 2009. So.. tulan. By that time it'll be obsolete already la. But then, Iphones are already available here in Lowyat, costing approximately RM2.7K. Goshd, these money-sucking thieves. They untung 1.7K, that's like, a whooping 170% profit. You do the math!

I felt so potong steam when my dad's friend bought the wrong phone. He bought n70 instead.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ignore that =.=

So, okay. I made a deal with my brother and my dad. I am currently using my dad's n80, and my brother's using n70, and my dad is using my brother's lousy punya phone at the moment. And the greatest thing of it is.. my dad doesn't mind. At first, I felt a bit conceited though. But in the end he told me that he was fine with it cause I practically forced my brother to return the n70 to him :) N80 is working really well, although its a hand-me-down from my dad (haha), at least it doesn't give me the 'Insert Sim Card' problem like my previous capalang phone.

I am happy, although I felt a tad disappointed in the beginning. Yeah. I am grateful that I am blessed and privileged. All thanks to Him above ;)

And next week, I'll be going shopping with my pompuans! Unfortunately Ashley could not make it because apparently her mom has been nagging ceaselessly. You are so potong steam lar wei. Geez.

Hahahahahaahaha. And the best thing is, I'm all geared up for Christmas. Yay. Love the fairytale-ish decorations and ornaments. I am feeling so warm inside :D

Ah. Dang those mosquitos. Irritating nya. Blame on my insomnia. Haha.

FIONA. ANDREA . ROSABEL. ASHLEY.

ILY :DDDDDD

I miss these pompuans like giler! They've gone MIA. :(

Monday, December 03, 2007

To sum up, life has been pretty good. I'm happy as a lark :D There are millions of reasons for me to smile. But I'll lay low at the moment, brushing my private life aside. Haha. Or if you're really curious, you can ask me on MSN or something but most of the time I'll be MIA, so don't get offended if I don't reply you :) It depends on my mood also lah actually. Hehe.

YLDP starts this Wednesday, and I'm not going. How sad is that! I was looking forward to it - I could meet back my Youthquake friends from every part of Malaysia, only to know that dateline has already passed when my friend told me. Aaaaaahhh. So potong steam you know.

*Smacks head*

I should be reprimanded for my stupidity.

And frankly speaking, I think I've lost the enthusiasm to blog. I used to be an avid blogger, and now, the zeal to blog has died down already. It's getting.. boring. I have practically nothing to blog, and I would consider it very frustrating to crack my head all the time. It can be nerve wrecking, really! But I still hope that my blog will not be covered by mosses.

But oui, sire. I'll try my best to blog once in a while.

So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye earthlings :)